Goal: Document my memories, and color color color!

Ok, where did I leave off? The crystal meth revelation right? Well, let's not go there yet. There's plenty of time for that, and so much other stuff to talk about. Since people are so quick to judge when they hear that you experimented with drugs in the past, let's let imaginations run wild and theories form before I tell the real story. 

I gave some deep thought to the whole point of my starting (or restarting, rather) a new blog. Is it to discuss politics or news? To voice my intellectual opinion on things that everybody is talking about right now? Or should I use this blog as a median with which to advertise the things I sell on Souq.com? Perhaps I should make this my vehicle to express my pent-up frustrations. The problem with all of the above is that, bottom line, it's b-o-r-i-n-g. Who wants to hear about all of that anyway? And I realized something. Reading my old Webjournal, I felt like I went back in time to those crazy wild days that I sometimes miss so much. So what I want to do is document my memories, as best as I can, so that whenever I feel like making a random trip down memory lane, I can go back to my blog and visualize in my mind the craziness of my past. As you've noticed, I use the word "crazy" a lot, but this is only because it's simply the best way to describe it. So you see, this blog isn't really for you guys to learn more about me and who I am - it's for me to remember who I used to be and to reconcile that with the person I am today. The only problem is that this is a very public blog and there are tons of things that I want to remember, but that I don't want the whole world to know. So I'll try to gloss over some of those crazier parts without detracting too much from the memory. Don't worry, I promise it will still be lots of fun!

Now doesn't this sound much better than reading a so-called intellectual blog full of fancy pants lingo and heavy sarcasm? I confess, I do have a tendency to get very analytical, but I will try my best to refrain from complicated language :) So let's get started!

First thing you need to know: there's been, and will probably always be, a lot of drama in my life. I've done a lot of stupid stuff, but I'm not ready to spill all my secrets here. The stupid regrettable stuff will have to be published one day in a fiction novel under an alias.

Let's get down to the basics: I'm a Philippine-born, US-raised 29-year-old who doesn't feel her age (as you will come to find out), is naturally upbeat - but unhappy about many things in her life, is trying to see past her imperfections, and has 100% faith and belief in God Almighty, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit. I love horror movies, and I've seen ghosts (more about that in another post), and I love to travel. I want to explore the world, I want to be financially healthy enough not to have to work, and I want more hours in the day to be able to do the things that I want to do. I have a healthy love for arts & crafts (you should see my dining table - it's arts & crafts heaven), and I love love love cats, especially my Momens. I love to hang out with friends from all walks of life, and it's these people that color my world. As I begin to relate to you the craziness of my past life, I hope my friends will begin to color your reading as well :)

The Beginning of the Continuation...

Well, here I am again. After five long years, can you believe it?! The first time that I blogged here was back in December of 2004. It was actually the last time, too. Check out the old blog here.

So, if you've read the previous blog, you'd know that there is a link to my old webjournal. Last night I happened upon my old webjournal and was amazed to see that I had written at one of the most lowest, but craziest, points of my life. It was all about binge-drinking, breaking up, and partying ALL THE TIME. Dude, I was already 24 then and I was still partying like a 19-year-old college kid. Sigh. How I miss those days when I used to get drunk and wild and still wake up the next morning looking fabulous. Now I get drunk and sick and wake up in the morning looking like a used dishrag.

So anyway, this isn't really supposed to be a blog about how old and decrepit I feel, or what a party girl I used to be and all the crazy stuff that I did that nobody really knew about - THAT is a post that will come soon ;-)

No, what I really wanted to blog about was something that I discovered just recently when searching for clues of what happened to my favorite teen Filipina-American idol. No - I'm not talking about Vanessa Hudgens. (That girl gets on my nerves for reasons that I haven't fully analyzed, but of course plan to do.) I'm talking about the one and only beautiful, smart, talented Lizzie McGuire sidekick Lalaine Vergara-Paras.

I was such a huge fan of hers during my whole Lizzie McGuire phase. I thought she was funny, had beautiful eyes, had a great sense of humor and deserved more than just a sidekick role in Disney shows. And then I found out she was pure Filipina (born and raised in Burbank, CA, and I was thrilled! Even now people mistake her for a Latina, but she's proud of her heritage and is quick to tell people about her ethnic background. She even went back to the Philippines for a while to host a TV show called "Flipside" on the Travel Channel. Flipside concentrates on Lalaine's return to the Philippines in a quest to discover her old roots. She ventures all over Manila, stopping by local hotspots and tourist traps, all the while tasting various Filipino delicacies and picking up interesting tidbits of Philippine history. Check out some of her Flipside episodes onYouTube.

Aside from a career in TV, Lalaine is also a budding musician, with smooth vocals and quick fingers on the guitar. She was cast in the Broadway production of Les Miserables in the roles of Young Cosette and Eponine because of her beautiful voice, and she also later sang as orphan Kate in the movie "Annie."

Now that I've told you all about her, here's what I found out when I was searching for any recent news of her online. OK, so this is not so recent, but pretty close. Lalaine was arrested on July, 2007 for felony possession of methamphetamine, otherwise known as crystal meth. In the Philippines it's widely known as "shabu." I know what you're saying right now, "WTF?!" I can't believe it either! This beautiful, talented, sweet, adorable girl is on drugs?!! Read all about it in the Hollywood Grind.

Disappointment cannot describe what I feel for this girl. She has her whole future ahead of her and though she hasn't hit the big time, she very well could with some honest perseverance and faith. But you know what? I should cut her some slack. I myself know how tempting drugs can be, and how hanging with the wrong crowd can easily influence you to do things you'll later regret.

I admit that yes, I have done crystal meth in the past. Now it's your turn to be disappointed. Sigh. I'm sorry to have burst your bubble, especially that I look like such a sweet innocent in my picture, lol. Who am I kidding?! Those of you who really know me are probably not shocked at all.

The truth is, going to university in the Philippines and hanging out with the wrong crowd is so easy. It's easy to get drugs. Easy to buy alcohol (there's no age limit on purchasing alcohol and tobacco). Easy to do a lot of bad things that you generally would have a ferociously difficult time doing in the United States.

So you want to know how I ended up doing crystal meth, and what other crazy sh*t I did in the PI? Stick around and find out! This is just the beginning of the continuation.....